November 8, 2017

As to the Lord


I find such peace and comfort in this verse. Amidst all the turmoil and confusion and conflict in the world... and the many voices and opinions telling me what to do, what to think, how to look, how to spend my time... I need to only heed two of those voices.

Jesus is first, of course. Our perfect Lord and Savior... the way, the truth, and the life. And next is my own husband. My husband is not perfect, but he *is* perfect for me, he is the head of our home, and the leader of our family.

I think it comes down to trust. Do I trust my husband to take care of me, to make good decisions, to lead our family, etc.? Yes I do, completely and unconditionally. What if he makes a wrong choice or decision? Well, then I stand by my man and trust that God will work it out for our good and His glory. It truly is that simple.

And I am most certainly not perfect, but I am thankful that I am not the same wife that I was in the earlier years of our nearly thirty year marriage.  No longer trying to be in control of everything, I am happy to embrace my role as my dear husband's helper and supporter.

I am not weak by any means. But I have learned to hold back and not solve every problem... and to not nag, criticize, or correct. I am strong and confident and we do discuss everything, then my dear husband makes the decisions and I trust him.

I listen to a lot of wonderful sermons and teachings. I love to read and learn and discuss and grow. So many articles, so many methods, so many excellent ideas! It can be overwhelming, and it can tempt me to feel inadequate, to question myself unnecessarily... but those two voices, the voice of the Lord and the voice of my *own* husband are the only ones that I must heed, the only ones that truly matter to me.

This past couple of years have been amazing for me, personally. I found Christ-based confidence and the gumption to begin simply being my authentic self. To stop fearing... to stop even noticing... what others think of my choices, my life, my imperfections. It can be scary to change, to embrace authenticity and vulnerability, to walk away from what always was and toward the new.

I am a born-again Christian. We have a large family. We homeschool. We live a frugal, debt-free life on a homestead with a barnyard full of well-loved critters. I enjoy fitness and hoopdancing. I knit and sew and grind my own flour and bake all of our bread. I don't wear makeup. I love Broadway. I am a mix of an eclectic variety of quirks and interests... and I still consider myself to be a conservative Christian homemaker, joyfully subject to my own husband.

Truly blessed I am, indeed. And rather imperfect... even willing to let that show. Which is a rather big deal for this former perfectionist control freak. Ha!

It's okay if others don't like my choices or understand. I don't answer to them, only to the Lord and my own husband... their love for me is unconditional. I have peace with my authentic self. In fact, I kind of like me. {smile}

Perhaps these thoughts will inspire you in your own authentic journey. I do hope they will! I have never been happier since I decided to simply be me. But I only know what is working in my own life... I never intend to set goals or standards for anyone else as I share my thoughts. Do seek the Lord and the advice of your own husband as the Bible says...

"Wives, be subject to your own husbands, as to the Lord." Ephesians 5:22 (WEB)

Such freedom, indeed... I love it.







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